A Cry Out For Meaning: A Journey Through Tarot

Ask and you shall receive…

After a rather trying January, I was literally crying out for understanding: “why have I been working so hard on myself and yet I feel the very worst I’ve felt in my life? I need answers, Universe!” I know the old adage: “it’s always darkest before the dawn,” but when you’re stuck in the darkness of your own mind, it’s hard to find anything but more darkness sometimes…

In Divine Perfect Timing (of course) I was gifted some cannabis and the fruition of a rather subconsciously honed tarot-reading ability. I had received 2 decks for Christmas, and after months of watching YouTube tarot-readings the skills seemed to embed, and my yearning to understand was granted an answer: sprawled in tarot cards across my bedroom floor. Here is what they showed me:

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Justice (11) is overseeing your life. The Karma is ending XX (it was only ever karma, dear one). All that kept you locked up in the tower is coming crashing down. All the sadness and the burdens [under pressure]; the limitations and the boredom; all the apathy and the unsafety: just walk away: it is time to jump into the unknown. You are waking up and (learning to walk again) walking away from the cycles that have plagued you for eons. All the hostility you have held against your Self, your Brothers and your Sisters comes crashing down NOW>Hit The Wave< Release Judgement. Listen2Muse; ignite your passion; (I MAKE THE CHOICE ⚓ I Forgive ⚓ I Follow the path to my new beginning ⚓) Rewards are waiting for you on the other side.

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Patience is essential on this journey. Slow and steady wins the race. You have chosen to transmute A LOT of karma, and this takes time. This snail’s pace is truly a blessing in disguise. Just keep following the numbers. Recognise you are just transmuting karma (YOU CAN DO NO WRONG⚓). Dive deep into the Self. Choose what you know is right for you, follow your passions; keep honing your craft (Clai)Rebel Girl, (AAGabrielle is with you), leave the pain of the past in the past(passed): SAIL ON, SO FREE…Let go of your stresses (you can do no wrong) and allow yourself to be a Master of your Mind. Don’t take no for an answer. Keep striving forward, no matter how long it tAKES…
(I release time, and I travel, so free…)

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As you continue to establish your connection with your angels (expect miracles); as you continue to heal and evolve, you will become The Magician (I). Your Divine Feminine (Sacral) Center will be healed. You will heal lack, and you will abundantly have all that you need in the material world: I expect miracles when it comes to money, money, money 38331 ⚓ (I RELEASE LIMITATIONS: NOW GONE⚓).

⚓44.You are now fulfilling your Individual Soul Mission.33⚓

As you travel on the path of your Soul, A Divinely Guided Meeting and Significant Spiritual Experience (healing) will significantly activate both of your Crown and HEart Chakras, as well as WIPE OUT the heavy clouds of the mind. This new energy will be anch44red and (A LLOT OF) karma will be released.

Victory, Harmony and New Beginnings are assured, in a new (GROUNDED) spiritually-based future(the future’s coming for us now, in this house). Celebr4tion awaits you now.⚓

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Further down the line, the stable Knight of Cups offering to The Empress will be made by the King of Cups counterpart. The layers will continue to shed as both counterparts activate and clear each other thru their life experience, and spiritual experience.

Inevitably, The Empress and The Emperor finally join-back-together in harmony⚓, fulfilling their mission together: their DIvine Destiny⚓: rockSTARseeds.

Victory and Harmon(e)y is Assured.
I release time and I CLAIM what’s mine.
And so it is… ❤

In Between Worlds: a Poem

I want this new beginning
but struggling to believe…
‘cuz I’ve gone all in before
with what I wanted, I was sure
yet ended up on the floor…

The only difference:
this is Music
and True Love
literally all I’ve ever dreamed of…

All before I was taught to believe
in something very far from me
but this vision came straight from me
so I must relearn to believe in me!

So I leave the past behind.
I make a stand for what’s mine:
and go all in, one last time…

The Very Worst Version of Me: a Poem

I’ve said bad things
I’ve done bad things
yet I am my own worst critic
I find it hard to forgive

I am full of fear
I am full of doubt
afraid I’ll never move past this
and be stuck, alone
where I don’t want to be

Most days I feel ugly
Most days I feel shame
just to show up as I really am
I feel unacceptable
unloveable
unable to see

This is the very worst version of me

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