Fear: a Poem

I’m scared of being heard
of being seen
of doing the wrong things
I’m scared of the pain
of the constant fucking heartache
scared of my over-sensitivity…

I’m scared of feeling forever alone
of never truly being seen
(yeah I know, I’m contradicting…)
or known
I’m scared I’m trapped within their home
I’m scared of the time it takes to grow
and what horrible shit
I’m gonna have to go through…

I’m scared of my potential
and how I’ll live up to it
I’m scared I’m not talented
or special enough to do this
despite all the dreams & musings
a part of me just feels foolish
I’m scared it’s all just so amusing
to God or whatever is overseeing
that a fucked up girl like me
thinks they could ever have
a successful life in artistry…

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watch my spoken word version of this poem
on YouTube: https://youtu.be/i4u4JYSA_0g